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It’s been so long that I can’t say for sure how I became lonely. I live in a house with a woman, with whom I am espoused, and 2 young men -all of whom have their own plans and lives. There isn’t much animosity between us. There are some moments of levity, but perhaps because there is so much time between those moments and the last time we’ve spent quality time with each other… it feels more like interactions with co-workers at the office, lacking enough depth for it to feel like a meaningful connection. ...

I’m on day 1 of a 7 day fast. I’m fasting food, social media, and the news. My goal is to have time to do what matters this week. I am fasting because I am angry too often. Perhaps it’s because what I see happening in my day-to-day life isn’t aligned to the life I thought I’d live? not sure, but that’s at least part of it. I’ll be putting notes here daily, that are… my reaction to the fast, any realizations, how I feel, how much I prayed, whether or not I heard from God definitively today and if so - what I heard (if I can share). ...