I’m on day 1 of a 7 day fast. I’m fasting food, social media, and the news. My goal is to have time to do what matters this week. I am fasting because I am angry too often. Perhaps it’s because what I see happening in my day-to-day life isn’t aligned to the life I thought I’d live? not sure, but that’s at least part of it.
I’ll be putting notes here daily, that are… my reaction to the fast, any realizations, how I feel, how much I prayed, whether or not I heard from God definitively today and if so - what I heard (if I can share).
Day1:
I started fasting last night close to midnight. Right now it’s been 23 hours or so. I haven’t really experienced hunger, but I’ve been a little more tired that usual.
I started this site because I continue to hear from God that I should write. I still don’t know exactly what to write, but I sense the need to write.. every day, and sometimes the sense of urgency to write is overwhelming or sometimes it’s like a reminder - before sleep - write.
I cleaned my office today and prepped my clothes for tomorrow… I haven’t done that in a while. I’ve made many new feature changes to the site - all backend to help me deliver more quickly.
I am more tired than usual. I took a 3-4 hour nap earlier and since I got up - still feels like I could sleep more.
I have not prayed much today. I got up about time to work (remote today) and got on calls till I had to nap.. I must pray before bed.. and shower :)
perhaps a little context here… I’ve been extremely inactive for years. I had the car wreck ten years ago and since, I’ve done minimal required in pretty much every aspect of my life… I’ve put on 60 pounds, and have been on seeminly more and more medications. However, I feel a shift… like I must change, so I have been going to physical therapy for a few weeks now (twice a week)… each session feels more and more like a workout, and I leave shaking.. I’m so weak.. not in every way, but in all the ways the physical therapy place are working me out I am weak.. That said - I feel more strong and.. good than I have felt in years.
ok, that’s it for day 1. I need to shower, pray & read the Bible. I’ll make updates here tomorrow if I hear something in prayer.
Laying in bed praying .. I am in God’s presence. He is so merciful. I am amazed at His grace and mercy! Surely I would have imagined that He’d use someone else to write for Him. Paul once said he was the chief sinner.. feel like I am giving him a run for the money on that one. Yet when I come to Him, He receives me and fills me again. I love God so much. In hind sight today… I’m amazed at how much time I spent doomscrolling so far in life… watching reels or random YouTube vids… none of that satisfies nearly as much as being in His presence. God forgive me for wasting so much time.
Day2:
at work. I heard God tell me that He loves me in prayer this am. I struggled to get started in prayer, but after that - it was easier.
l didn’t know what to read/listen to, in The Bible, so I asked and heard Exodus. I’m in chapter 14, in Bible Study… so started there and now chapter 29… there are so many details!
God cares about the details. When you hear from God - write it down, so you don’t forget any little thing!
God told Moses that He would destroy the children of Israel at Mt Sinai when they built the calf. To which, Moses begged God not to do that, and God repented. Can man change the mind of God? Either this was a test, which Moses passed, or we can change God’s mind… assuming what we pray for, is aligned to God’s will. The lady in the Bible that goes to the unjust judge… and is rejected.. she continued to press the judge.. and he relented. We must bring our petitions to Him. We are His children. Doesn’t the Bible quote saying men are wicked yet they give their good - how much more so , then will God give His children good.
I’ve waffled on whether to pray my needs .. bc I know God sees where I am, but I think He wants to spend time with us.. so, we must go to him.