It’s been so long that I can’t say for sure how I became lonely. I live in a house with a woman, with whom I am espoused, and 2 young men -all of whom have their own plans and lives. There isn’t much animosity between us. There are some moments of levity, but perhaps because there is so much time between those moments and the last time we’ve spent quality time with each other… it feels more like interactions with co-workers at the office, lacking enough depth for it to feel like a meaningful connection. ...

I’m on day 1 of a 7 day fast. I’m fasting food, social media, and the news. My goal is to have time to do what matters this week. I am fasting because I am angry too often. Perhaps it’s because what I see happening in my day-to-day life isn’t aligned to the life I thought I’d live? not sure, but that’s at least part of it. I’ll be putting notes here daily, that are… my reaction to the fast, any realizations, how I feel, how much I prayed, whether or not I heard from God definitively today and if so - what I heard (if I can share). ...

When we were young, I remember him getting on the floor to wrestle with us and play, but as he got older… he was generally given to his work. He always said he would much rather be home with us, but by the time I was 10, if I wanted any relationship time with my father, I had to go to work with him, and so I did—often. On the job, he seemed like a completely different person. He treated his laborers like they were disposable, using them until they broke. I caught him in many small lies when he was talking with customers. When I asked him about it, he said something like, “They asked for the stars, but when I gave them a price for the stars, they said they could only pay for the moon, so I’m giving them a moon-priced job. If they wanted higher quality, they should have paid for it.” ...

No man can enter The Kingdom of God unless he can deny himself. That may not be verbatim, but it’s close. God put limits on himself when it comes to mankind. How are you limiting yourself? Lent is a good idea but… fasting must be part of your lifestyle until He comes or you pass on to Him. Short post, but I can’t shake it.

God cares for and guides small things. He sees you

Rewritten Blog Post Few passages unsettle thoughtful believers more than the story of Pharaoh’s hardened heart. The idea that God would harden a man’s heart can feel troubling—even unfair—as though Pharaoh were set up to fail. I’ve heard sincere Christians wrestle with this passage, wondering whether the problem lies in God’s character or in the story itself. But over time, I’ve come to believe the discomfort often points somewhere else entirely—not to a hardened heart in Scripture, but to the lens through which we read it. ...